~tsukishadow

hi everyone, im so sorry i dont do many journals or fav or submissions or even talk to you all here.
I mainly forget. And school.well is sucks and to be honest. I'm not myself,I'm so stressed out and i find myself alone in my room latley..i dont know what it is. It could be the face schools ending and examsc are stressing me. even though my dad doesnt care. hes drunk after work anyway hell he doesnt even see me right here in the living room on the laptop. nice dad..mom be proud to see you being a looser right now. it may be the fact that everyone has to shove there opinions in my face. it may be because my top 2 freinds and Lisa arent on as much. lisas grounded..not this weeknd thank the lord.. and KK..well she gets an hour and i missed her i think the other day as i was doing this stupid take home test. ..i find myself at moms grave alot latley..i used to feel like mom was close..now i dont even think shes there anymore..Tori if your reading this youve helped me alot latley..Debbie if your reading this..just..thank you for the other day you made me feel..better..not too much but you made a difference the other day..thanks for the mindless self indulgence music..dont worry im not an emo for suicide or crap like that but..i dont know anymore...i dont even wanna submit my poems because theres no good in them..they are darker than poems.. no offense Axl but you write so dark its saddening...i dyed my hair black and blue..no photos though no offence but the last thing i wanna deal with right now is a stalker..guys..i want some help..freinds..some confort would be nice..really..screw it..its late..like almost 1:30 in the bloody morning..i wanna cry..probably wont..if no one logs in in 30 mins from now im going to bed and hopefully after a movie i pass out and i get a decent amount of sleep..i hope my cousin calls me..she always helps me..but shes sooo busy..doing college even in the summer..*ears go down* i know she cares for me and everything but..i dont see myself in her life anymore..people are changing..before i know it ill be in college doing the same crap she is..

well..take care my freinds..